Where’s the light?

I’m going to be honest with you right now — I have had a rough week. Not because anything went particularly wrong but because of an overwhelming workload.

Before I get into the substance of this post, here is a drawing I did (with some inspiration and maybe a little tracing) to illustrate my state of mind:


During worship at church this evening, we sang a song with the lyrics, “I finally know where I belong… to be with You…”

It was while singing these words that I realized the difference between claiming something and living something.

This question came to mind: Is the presence of God my home or simply a vacation house?

Do I reside with Jesus or is He an escape?

If being with Him is where I belong, I don’t want to treat my time with Jesus as an occasion but as a lifestyle. God is my Rock, not an acquaintance.

Psalm 1 talks about being a tree planted by streams of living water. As someone who desires the closeness of the Lord to be my life source, this analogy expresses the longing of my heart.

2 Samuel 23:3–4 states, “The God of Israel spoke, the Rock of Israel said to me: ‘When one rules over people in righteousness, when he rules in the fear of God, he is like the light of morning at sunrise on a cloudless morning, like the brightness after rain that brings grass from the earth.’”

My pastor brought up an incredible point tonight about this passage. Basically, David is prophesying about Jesus as the King of kings and Lord of lords. Because Jesus is a righteous and just ruler, He is the light of the morning and the brightness after rain which brings forth growth.

As trees planted by streams of living water, we also need this light to grow. And guess what? That water, that light, it’s Jesus. God provides everything we need — He is everything we need.

So, instead of just singing about how much I need Jesus, I want to live as He is my source. Instead of treating my time with the Lord as a vacation from life, I want Him to be my permanent home — where I reside.

“One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek Him in His temple.” ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭27:4‬